First of all, work. There might be a light at the end of this horrific tunnel. My branch has left much to be desired in the happiness department for probably the past year or more. We recently got new management, but it really hasn't changed anything. It could possibly be more annoying than ever before. I do feel fortunate to have a good paying job with amazing benefits and plenty of time off, so I've been making myself stick it out no matter how much I want to jump ship. My DM called me the other day about a possible promotion and opportunity at another branch. It's a personal banker/small business specialist position at our Eastgate office. This is a lot more responsibility, but I'm up for the challenge. I think. I've always been very interested in this particular office because it's so busy and I've always done well with the clientele on the east side of town. I interview for it tomorrow, so hopefully will know more about if and when I'll be movin on up very soon.
My health has been plaguing me again. And try as I might to be positive, I am so god damned frustrated with there always being an issue. I feel like I keep chasing my tail. If it's not one thing, it's another. My neck has been terrible lately. I have had horrible neck issues since about 2008 when an old car accident injury decided to rear it's ugly head and cause me nearly constant pain. After two massages and a few adjustments, I can hold my head up without constant pain, but it's been rough. That makes it hard to want to function at all. I just thank the universe I have great insurance and have found an incredible chiropractor and massage therapist. Right now I have the head cold from hell, but I think my constant Zicam popping is helping to clear it up pretty quickly. And the biggest issue of them all, is what's going on down below...
I have literally had issues with my periods since I started getting them as a girl. Back then, they were so terrible I had to be put on birth control at the age of 12 because they were so awful they caused me to be anemic. I stayed on the pill a very long time because I was afraid to be off of it. When I was about 20, I took a break from the pill to see what would happen. This lead to a series of events that would leave me miserable and hopeless for almost ten years. I quit having periods all together and saw a few different doctors before being diagnosed with PCOS. I've battled with different medications and treatments to ease my symptoms for years to no avail. I made the decision to have lapband surgery in hopes of finding some relief. I know it will take some time to lose all of my weight and hopefully get that relief, but I'm not having such an easy time of it right now. Long story short, I have been having constant bleeding for over a month now. I saw my gyno yesterday to try to get some answers. I now have to have a sonohysterography ultrasound done very soon. He thinks I could have a fibroid tumor or polyp. No idea. And if it is one of these lovely things, I'll have to have surgery to remove it and then hopefully go on with my life. If not, then he says I can go back on the pill, which is not an option it makes me CRAZY, or go on a drug called Lysteda to hopefully ease my periods. The way I feel about it, if there is no reason he can find for these prolonged periods, I will be going to see an endocrinologist who can hopefully get my hormones in check so that I can stop living this nightmare. Needless to say, I've felt miserable lately and have been a big bag of hormones and that, on top of everything else, has made me a lazy ass.
I also saw the dentist today because my wisdom teeth are trying to come in and are causing me pain. So, in the next few weeks I'll be having that taken care of. And I often wonder why I'm such a bitch. I guess being in constant pain has taken it's toll on me. I'm trying to smile between the tears and trying to find the silver lining. All I know is that SOMETHING has to give. And soon. I am so ready to just feel vibrant again.
What's on my horizon:
Looking forward to this weekend. It's Donna's birthday and we are having a SPA DAY! That makes me happy.
I will be heading to Ann Arbor with MUSE in March. It will be my first trip with them and I'm very excited. I love me some Michigan!
My interview is tomorrow. I'm really excited about this opportunity and I'm crossing my fingers!
Even in the midst of all these health issues, I've managed to lose about 14 pounds. It's coming slowly but surely. I can't wait until I feel better so I can really kick it into gear. I'd like to have a good 30 to 40 lbs off by the time I leave for Portland in April.
What I'm listening to: Coldplay Mylo Xyloto. I'm giving it a listen. I'm not happy with them right now because of their collaboration with Rihanna but I like the new single. And no one is perfect. :)
Keep your head up girl. I know the feeling about the health issues. I feel as if I've been falling apart since the day I was born.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the 14 lbs.! I need to get back to the gym. I've been such a lazy ass after the holidays. To be honest, the pain from my tooth & the pain meds have kept me at home.
Just keep thinking about what the universe has in store for you. It'll get better. I promise! ♥
Hello!
ReplyDeleteThanks for visiting my blog :)
I am so excited for you in your journey to improved health. You can do it! It's a lot of work, but totally worth it.
I do lots of updates/tips/motivation during the day on my facebook page. Check it out if you haven't already. The link is on the left upper side of my blog.
I'll check back soon to see how you're doing.
Do you have a surgery date yet?
Thanks for the reply! Ive looked at your blog some and it's very helpful. I actually had surgery November 18th. I had my first fill last week and am down 14 pounds so far. Thanks for the encouragement!!
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