Movin' on UP!!!!!!!!!

I'm posting about the fan-freaking-tastic news that I got yesterday!!!  I am officially being promoted to be a small business specialist at another branch in my district.  What that means is that I will not only deal with consumer accounts and products, but I will be the primary source that businesses go to if they need help or if they need (hopefully) new accounts and products.  I've been wanting to go to this particular branch since I started with the company, mostly because it is one of the busiest branches in the area.  I used to work on the east side of town, and did very well with the clientele there.  I think this is exactly what I need to revamp my career and be more successful.  I'm so excited about this challenge and I feel like everything is really finally turning around.  I know that if I keep having faith that where I am is exactly where I'm supposed to be, everything will always turn out ok.  I'm going to keep working hard on my career, my health, my entire life and be the best ME I can be.

I'm really excited for this weekend.  I get to perform with MUSE on Saturday AND Sunday!!  I also get to see Robyn Lana, aka my mentor, who is the founding director of Cincinnati Children's Choir.  They are performing right before us on Saturday.  I will probably cry seeing her in the audience just because she is home to me and I'm so proud to still be doing what she taught me to do and love.  I must say, 2012 is looking bright!!!

And, last but not least, I FINALLY GET TO SEE THE SHINS IN JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!  Nuff said.

What I've Learned

I've learned that being able to sing music that not only inspires me, but reflects my belief system, has been one of the greatest gifts I've ever received.

I've learned that I must always be reading a good book.  Even if it takes me 3 months to finish.  I find great peace and solace in reading.

I've learned that it's ok to cry.

I've also learned that it's ok to cut myself some slack sometimes.  And to take a break.

I'm learning to be happy in the now.  And that this is not a rat race.  Not for me.

I've learned that no matter what is going on, snuggling in bed with my cats will always make everything better.

I've learned that there is time for all I want to achieve and do.  I just can't do it ALL right now.  :)

I've learned that above and beyond everything else, I will always be thankful for what I have and for all the amazing people I have in my life.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

I've been a bad blogger, but what else is new?  Honestly, I haven't even had the strength to go to a choir rehearsal this week, let alone type.  I'm lucky I've made it to work.  Everything that is going on with my health is really taking it's toll on me. 

My doctor decided to check my thyroid and my blood to see if I'm anemic.  That was done on Tuesday and I got the results back yesterday.  Both came back fine.  I was very frustrated by that only because I thought maybe, just maybe there was something we could start treating and that I'd start to feel better soon.  No dice. I can sleep for ten hours a night and I will still feel exhausted.  No matter what I do.  And nothing is working right.  So on Valentine's Day (lucky me) I get to have a sonohysteogram.  This is a fancy shmancy word for ultra sound that is just able to see more than a normal one.  After that, we should know if I have something structurely wrong with me or if it's just hormonal.  I could have some type of tumor or just have a very thick endometrium.  That's what they'll know after that.  I am seeing an endocrinologist sooner than April because my amazing director is helping me get into someone she knows personally.  All I know is that all of this is making me miserable, tired and very irritable.  I don't even like myself right now.  I just want to feel normal!

I get my next fill on Monday, so that's good!  I'm kind of laying low this weekend to rest and then next week I work all week, have rehearsals and performances next weekend.  I'm tired thinking about it, but I hope I can pull it together enough to be with my choirs.  I miss them!!!